Only one more moan - I promise

I was going to fill you in about my loft ....but....I have one more moaning, feeling sorry for myself post and then I promise to move on! I have to say I feel better today than I did yesterday. Today is my Gran's birthday and she would have been 87, which worryingly means I'm going to be 37 on my next birthday, did I tell you we have 25 years exactly between our generations, I don't think I've shared that before. My Gran was 25 when she had my mum, who is an only child, my mum was 25 when she had me, an only child and I was 25 when I had my son and then buggered up the proceedings by having a second child at the age of 27. So when my Gran's birthday comes around it's always a reminder that in 3 months time, all be another year nearer to 40!

Anyway, I'll tell you a sneaky wee bit about the loft, we have had it converted into a room, well really an office for me and with the hubby being made redundant I decided we would use what paint we had in the house rather than spending money that we didn't have to. We had a huge bucket of Dulux white, which was nearly empty and a huge unopened bucket of B&Q value white, so I decided white it was, I started with the dulux to use it up and when it was finished went onto the value paint, well that didn't go down to well as I quickly realised I would need at least 4 coats to match up with the Dulux coated walls, none the less I soldiered on and thought that would do an undercoat. I spent the weekend glossing and emulsioning. Yesterday when the kids came home from school I took them to their favourite place, B&Q, NOT and we purchased descend Dulux paint. After our rapid B&Q visit we went to visit Granny's grave. The ground was covered in snow, I am delighted to report we had our snow on Sunday/Monday, I bit more descend this time and the kids were off school with colds. sore throats and upset stomachs, but I made them go out and play in the snow, so out they went like Michelin men and had a great time. So anyway the kids decided to clear the snow from the ground over Granny and by the time they had walked around and shovelled snow with their hand the graveside looked like a dogs dinner. My mum is going to visit today and I can imagine her face when she sees the state of the ground, thinking someone has been prancing over her mother! In days gone by my Granny would have raised her eyebrows at such a 'mess' but if her great-grandchildren had done it then that would be absolutely fine, they could do no wrong! Granny's aaahhh

Now I am not adverse to painting I find it quite calming and therapeutic, however, it leads to thinking, I have spend hours and hours in that loft, painting and thinking, thoughts non stop running through my head and this makes me sad, empty and lonely. I am lonely and sad on the inside and I need a good laugh. On Saturday night the hubby and I are going to go for something to eat and then go to the pictures, something we haven't done for ages. Hoping mum will take the kids overnight to her house. Fingers crossed. A change of scenery that should do me good and perhaps a mad, rampant 5 minutes wouldn't go a-miss either!!!

SAD

I have to say I'm quite disappointed with our weather on the outskirts of Glasgow, while the rest of the country have struggled in inches of snow we had nothing more than a flurry, well perhaps at best 2 inches on Wednesday evening. I watched the weather warnings with delight and the thought of being snowed in and not being able to get to school and work did fill me with excitement, wrapping up warm and playing outside with the children, perhaps even sledging in the park, although we often have the weather bad the snow never lasts long enough and my children have never been on a sledge, well apart from in the back garden. And what did we get, a miserable 2 inches and a wind that would cut you in two!! What a sham.

I've needed a right good kick up the backside this week, I have done nothing all week, the hubby leaves at 8.30am and is not home until 10.30pm ish, the kids have been fine going about their business and I have drunk tea, watched TV and eaten cakes every night, I did put on a couple of washings and over 3 nights I managed to change 2 beds, I did it in stages you see! There wasn't anything in particular wrong with me, I thought perhaps I was coming down with something and I gave in straight away. But no I definitely think SAD has gotten hold of me and you should see the spots I've got with eating all these cakes, hell mend me! I was going to give myself a stern talking to but then I decided what the hell, I'm sure I'll come out of it in my own good time.

It's my Granny's birthday on Wednesday, her first birthday that she will not be with us for. My Granny now faces a retail park after being buried in the wrong plot and for years M&S have been trying to open a simply food store there, the problem being it is a retail park and the terms are you have to be selling ............, the word escapes me, but they sell large items i.e. carpets, white goods etc etc and M&S simply food did not qualify, however after years of battling it was announced last year that M&S had been granted permission and they would open early 2009, that then became early February and last week it was confirmed it will be opening on Wed 11th Feb, my Granny's birthday and I think she would approve, she always thought it would be great to have M&S close by, well she couldn't get one any closer.

While on the subject of dates, everybody has something that means something to them, be it a special number, colour and for me it's dates, is it a coincidence or does it have true meaning, take our special date 17th May;

I was born on 17th May 1972, I got engaged on the 17th May 1995, got married on 17th May 1996, these were planned obviously but then I spent my first wedding anniversary and 25th birthday on 17th May 1997 in labour from 6am in the morning, well that wasn't real labour, although it did appear so at the time being a labour virgin, before my son finally made his appearance at 1.08am on the 18th May, that was not planned, lazy bugger was due on the 7th!! my daughter was born in December 1999 and is always a little bit RAGING in May when we all have a connection and she has nothing. In our area the Holy Communions are always in June, either the 1st or 2nd Saturday but last year they brought them forward and of course you guessed it the 17th May, her day out shone our connections. We assumed they would now be in May as the local areas are all May, but no this year my niece is on 13th June! And now a 'Markies' is opening on my Gran's birthday. Coincidence or not?

I was actually going to tell you about my loft but I got side tracked so I'll keep that for next time. Duh!

There is hope!

I am delighted to say that the hubby has secured a job for 13 weeks with the same company. I am of course happy but what a carry on. Made redundant but at the same time advised that there was a vacancy for a 13 week project doing the same thing, with the same company but in Kirkcaldy which is 1hr & 15 min drive from our house. There was 8 guys put in for the job and fortunately the hubby secured it so he was made redundant on Friday and started the new project on Monday. We are hoping by the time this project ends that the company will have picked up and perhaps there will be more projects.

Fingers crossed.