It has been 10 months since I last posted. I hang my head in shame! It will now take me months to catch up on what everyone else has been up to.
So what has prompted me to post?
Recently on the world of facebook after a period of absence even from facebook a 'friend' of mine said - and I quote 'U been quiet lately - she's like the wind! All ok?' Aaarrrrgggghhhhhh, mild panic set in, someone knows my blogging name, OMG my deepest thoughts and feeling are written here, my whole life displayed openly, do I bring the whole blog down? What to do!!
Now it wouldn't have been so bad if it was a life long friend or a close friend, I would have perhaps deleted one post, everything else would be known by close friends. This friend is a relatively new friend, perhaps by about 3 years now, but we have known each other for over 18 years. We became friends when she entered my shop for the second time to purchase nursery uniforms for her son and I bravely announced 'you know who I am?!' and we chated for about an hour, perhaps it was more, and to my surprise she was really, really nice and I felt like a pure bitch. Although we had known of each other all these years, we had never spoken, although I'm sure if I had taken to time to speak to her we may actually have become friends a long time ago. Perhaps she thinks differently??
After reading over some of my posts I decided that I actually was quite proud of my blog and that if she was brave enough to admit she had been reading it then I was brave enough to leave it. It made me miss blogging and want to post again. I actually thought I had been missed when I logged back on to find 42 comments - only to realise they are in chinese writing and in poor taste so I will have to delete them lol.
Now that I am 38 years old and have 2 children of my own, I am bitterly disappointed in myself that I was not able to be more grown-up 19 years ago, however, I am not responsible for another adults actions and I did what I thought was right at the time. I consider my friend to be a far better person than I am and I am grateful this person considers me her friend.
Over to you my friend.........